I prayed for me to be happy or just be happier just for today I know he is trying to help me but I am being stubborn and hera( my therapist) says that's it's ok to be pissed sometimes just as long as you don't let it take over. That's what I'm doing. I guess just having a pity party. Anywho..... I wanted to send you an invitation, there you go. I hope you have a better day than I did.
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Monday, October 28, 2013
One of those days
Today sucks.. No sugar coating. I know it expected to be down sometimes right? It feels that my ups stay for a pretty long amount of time then when the downs hit its like I relapsed and hit the floor.
Wednesday, October 23, 2013
Meetings
It's my personal experience that meetings around your area really do help. It makes you stay active and accountable that was one of the main things when I was in my addiction that I did not follow. Spinsters and friends that you meet there can become lifetime friends yah know the old ladies you can cause havoc in the rest home with :) that's my testament to meetings thanks for reading!
Dailies
Mosiah 4:26
26 And now, for the sake of these things which I have spoken unto you—that is, for the sake of retaining a remission of your sins from day to day, that ye may awalk guiltless before God—I would that ye should bimpartof your substance to the cpoor, every man according to that which he hath, such asdfeeding the hungry, clothing the naked, visiting the sick and administering to their relief, both spiritually and temporally, according to their wants.
Isaiah 41: 10, 13
10 ¶a Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.
Sunday, October 20, 2013
Learning and listening
I went to church today with my family. It's one of the few days I get to spend with them due to work and keeping busy in my recovery. I feel it is very important to show how much you love your family, I mean they are the ones who stood by you, seen you at your best and your worst, when you were in your addiction. Anywho, everything in moderation is the best for me, so I'm in sacrament meeting and I just heard the poem:
the spider and the fly:
the spider and the fly:
This reminds me of satan who try's to make us think different and turn us away from god. Don't let him bring you in his den full of hate and sorrow, stay in the light and learn to say no, listen to the Holy Ghost he will never leave you.
“Will you walk into my parlour?” said the Spider to the Fly,
'Tis the prettiest little parlour that ever you did spy;
The way into my parlour is up a winding stair,
And I've a many curious things to shew when you are there.”
“Oh no, no,” said the little Fly, “to ask me is in vain,
For who goes up your winding stair
-can ne'er come down again.
“Will you walk into my parlour?” said the Spider to the Fly,
'Tis the prettiest little parlour that ever you did spy;
The way into my parlour is up a winding stair,
And I've a many curious things to shew when you are there.”
“Oh no, no,” said the little Fly, “to ask me is in vain,
For who goes up your winding stair
-can ne'er come down again.
“I'm sure you must be weary, dear, with soaring up so high;
Will you rest upon my little bed?” said the Spider to the Fly.
“There are pretty curtains drawn around; the sheets are fine and thin,
And if you like to rest awhile, I'll snugly tuck you in!”
“Oh no, no,” said the little Fly, “for I've often heard it said,
They never, never wake again, who sleep upon your bed!”
Said the cunning Spider to the Fly, “Dear friend what can I do,
To prove the warm affection I 've always felt for you?
I have within my pantry, good store of all that's nice;
I'm sure you're very welcome — will you please to take a slice?”
“Oh no, no,” said the little Fly, “kind Sir, that cannot be,
I've heard what's in your pantry, and I do not wish to see!”
“Sweet creature!” said the Spider, “you're witty and you're wise,
How handsome are your gauzy wings, how brilliant are your eyes!
I've a little looking-glass upon my parlour shelf,
If you'll step in one moment, dear, you shall behold yourself.”
“I thank you, gentle sir,” she said, “for what you 're pleased to say,
And bidding you good morning now, I'll call another day.”
The Spider turned him round about, and went into his den,
For well he knew the silly Fly would soon come back again:
So he wove a subtle web, in a little corner sly,
And set his table ready, to dine upon the Fly.
Then he came out to his door again, and merrily did sing,
“Come hither, hither, pretty Fly, with the pearl and silver wing;
Your robes are green and purple — there's a crest upon your head;
Your eyes are like the diamond bright, but mine are dull as lead!”
Alas, alas! how very soon this silly little Fly,
Hearing his wily, flattering words, came slowly flitting by;
With buzzing wings she hung aloft, then near and nearer drew,
Thinking only of her brilliant eyes, and green and purple hue —
Thinking only of her crested head — poor foolish thing!
At last,
Up jumped the cunning Spider, and fiercely held her fast.
He dragged her up his winding stair, into his dismal den,
Within his little parlour — but she ne'er came out again!
And now dear little children, who may this story read,
To idle, silly flattering words, I pray you ne'er give heed:
Unto an evil counsellor, close heart and ear and eye,
And take a lesson from this tale, of the Spider and the Fly.
Will you rest upon my little bed?” said the Spider to the Fly.
“There are pretty curtains drawn around; the sheets are fine and thin,
And if you like to rest awhile, I'll snugly tuck you in!”
“Oh no, no,” said the little Fly, “for I've often heard it said,
They never, never wake again, who sleep upon your bed!”
Said the cunning Spider to the Fly, “Dear friend what can I do,
To prove the warm affection I 've always felt for you?
I have within my pantry, good store of all that's nice;
I'm sure you're very welcome — will you please to take a slice?”
“Oh no, no,” said the little Fly, “kind Sir, that cannot be,
I've heard what's in your pantry, and I do not wish to see!”
“Sweet creature!” said the Spider, “you're witty and you're wise,
How handsome are your gauzy wings, how brilliant are your eyes!
I've a little looking-glass upon my parlour shelf,
If you'll step in one moment, dear, you shall behold yourself.”
“I thank you, gentle sir,” she said, “for what you 're pleased to say,
And bidding you good morning now, I'll call another day.”
The Spider turned him round about, and went into his den,
For well he knew the silly Fly would soon come back again:
So he wove a subtle web, in a little corner sly,
And set his table ready, to dine upon the Fly.
Then he came out to his door again, and merrily did sing,
“Come hither, hither, pretty Fly, with the pearl and silver wing;
Your robes are green and purple — there's a crest upon your head;
Your eyes are like the diamond bright, but mine are dull as lead!”
Alas, alas! how very soon this silly little Fly,
Hearing his wily, flattering words, came slowly flitting by;
With buzzing wings she hung aloft, then near and nearer drew,
Thinking only of her brilliant eyes, and green and purple hue —
Thinking only of her crested head — poor foolish thing!
At last,
Up jumped the cunning Spider, and fiercely held her fast.
He dragged her up his winding stair, into his dismal den,
Within his little parlour — but she ne'er came out again!
And now dear little children, who may this story read,
To idle, silly flattering words, I pray you ne'er give heed:
Unto an evil counsellor, close heart and ear and eye,
And take a lesson from this tale, of the Spider and the Fly.
Friday, October 18, 2013
Empowerment
http://qsciencesinfo.com
So I found these supplements I've heard they have been around for 15 years go check them out I'll let you know how they work for me I'd love to hear about your stories. :) Let me know if you have any questions!
Oh another thing I bought hurricanes can less air system the product that I will get to replace air duster in all stores
http://www.canlessair.com
It is my passion and what I am going to do to make my mark in this world I am committed to helping myself and all the kids who are addicted. :}
So I found these supplements I've heard they have been around for 15 years go check them out I'll let you know how they work for me I'd love to hear about your stories. :) Let me know if you have any questions!
Oh another thing I bought hurricanes can less air system the product that I will get to replace air duster in all stores
http://www.canlessair.com
It is my passion and what I am going to do to make my mark in this world I am committed to helping myself and all the kids who are addicted. :}
Thursday, October 17, 2013
Poetry calms me
A NEW PAGE
There’s a part of my life that’s now over.
There’s a part of my life that’s now gone:
and the time’s come for turning a new page -
for leaving behind what went wrong.
If I think of each day as a blessing;
a renewal of my energy:
then I shall move forward in confidence,
realising what my life can be.
Now, that part of my life is over…
I give thanks for it’s helped me to see,
how acceptance of hurt, then forgiveness;
transformed my own image of me.
Wednesday, October 16, 2013
Service
http://www.youngwomensempowermentcenter.net/Home
The best thing I can do with my time is service whenever I'm not working it's what I keep myself busy doing. It keeps my mind off all the problems I am having and puts my focus on others. It kind of like a good drug you get addicted to it and it's another thing to help take the pain away plus your doing good for someone else. Who knows who you will make smile today :)
http://twloha.com/blog http://addictionrecovery.lds.org/home?lang=eng
Love ya see ya tomorrow :}
The best thing I can do with my time is service whenever I'm not working it's what I keep myself busy doing. It keeps my mind off all the problems I am having and puts my focus on others. It kind of like a good drug you get addicted to it and it's another thing to help take the pain away plus your doing good for someone else. Who knows who you will make smile today :)
http://twloha.com/blog http://addictionrecovery.lds.org/home?lang=eng
Love ya see ya tomorrow :}
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